Sunday, March 16, 2008

One Final Palestinian Adventure: The Trip Home

I know I have joked a lot in this blog about my adventures, but the truth is that they are only adventures because I choose (and have the privilege) to see them this way. In a two-week trip, it is easy to think of difficulties as the challenges on the path to excitement as opposed to daily frustrations that should not be. I have taken many trips to many places (I've been to at least 23 countries) in my life, and when I encounter challenges like poor roads, slow transportation, long lines, interesting non-Western foods, or languages I don't comprehend I try to think of those things as the hilarious little bumps that come with the territory of being in a new place, especially in the era of post-colonialism. But what I have encountered in Palestine is not the normal minutia of the traveler's day: checkpoints, searches, having to fight for and with Palestinian friends just to guarantee passage through what is not even a border, limitations on where and when my friends and I can travel within and between cities, long waits for routine shipments to be allowed in, having to switch cars just to get from one place to another in the same country, etc. Rather, these obstacles represent my brief brushes with the systematic oppression of a people. So here and everywhere in my blog I use the word "adventure" facetiously.

On my way home, it was clear that the Israelis wanted to send me off with a bang. Maybe this is just the Israeli version of a goodbye party for Palestinian sympathizers. Except if they really knew I was a Palestinian sympathizer, I would have been in for much more...

It started when Karam and a friend of her family (I will not mention his name here) drove me to the airport in his "service" van. We drove the hour or so from Jerusalem to Tel Aviv, and we began to see signs for the airport around 1:10 PM. I thought, "Great, my flight isn't until 4:35, so I'm right on time."

Not so.

There is a checkpoint placed right before the airport, and almost every car that passes through it gets passed through without stopping for more than a few seconds. Oops, correction: I should say every car with non-Arabs in it. Apparently, we were much more suspicious than most of the cars coming our way, because the soldiers took one look at Karam's and the driver's passports (as well as mine) and told us to pull over and step out of the car. Once we were out of the car, he opened the trunk and asked whose bags those were. They were all mine, and we told him so. Paging through my passport, he asked me why I was in Palestine. I told him I was a visitor, a tourist. He asked if I had family here. I told him no. He asked how I knew Karam and the driver. I told him Karam is the cousin of a friend of mine and the driver is just driving me to the airport. He looked at me suspiciously. Then he told us to take all the bags out of the car and place them on the sidewalk. We took all our (mostly my) belongings out and put them in a big pile on the sidewalk. Then he asked us for all of our cell phones. Now, there is a funny thing with cell phones in Palestine. So many Palestinians I know have more than one cell phone, as many of them have one for work and one for personal use or something like that. The driver had 3 cell phones, and Karam had 2. I only gave the soldier my Israeli cell phone and figured that if he found my American one I could just tell him I didn't even think of giving it to him because I don't use it as a phone here. (Luckily, I realized, I had spent much of the ride to the airport deleting the phone numbers of the people I had been with in Palestine, so there were no numbers actually saved on the phone. Whew!) Of course, the soldier unapologetically dropped one of the driver's phones as he walked away.

So we stood on the sidewalk next to a mound of my luggage while the soldier called us into an office, one at a time. At the same time, another soldier searched the entire van, using one of those plastic wands with the nitrates-sensing cotton swabs at the end to sweep every possible surface of the vehicle. In one hand he held the wand, in the other his gun.

Once the first soldier had worked on the driver and then Karam, he told me to bring my things and come with him. I couldn't carry everything at once, so I had to bring my bags in in two trips. Of course, he didn't lift a finger to help me. When I got in, he made me place each bag on a table while he searched it. I had packed my big hiking backpack as my checked luggage and my regular backpack, my purse, and a laptop case full of tiles and other fragile souvenirs as carry-ons. He unpacked all of the carry-ons, going through everything and even x-raying my backpack, and then he went through much of my hiking backpack as well. He used the nitrates-sensing wand on the whole shebang. Then, of course, he made me pack everything up again. I acted grumpy towards him the whole time, especially when I had to replace everything in my previously carefully-packed hiking backpack.

I was sent outside with my stuff once more (once more he did not help me with any of it) and told that I could put it all back in the van and that all of us needed to go in the van and stay there. At one point, I wanted to take a picture of Karam in the car, and I started to jump out of the vehicle to do so, but she and the driver quickly told me to stay in the van because the soldiers did not want us outside. They did sound a little worried, and, in retrospect, they were correct. Finally, the soldiers came back with our phones and IDs and sent us along our merry way, about 30 minutes after we had originally arrived.

Ok, so I still had a little less than 3 hours to check in, go through security, and get to my gate to wait for boarding. That didn't seem so bad. Boy, was I wrong!

They dropped me off at the airport, I paid the driver, and I loaded everything onto a luggage cart for easy movement. Karam and I said a sad goodbye and gave each other big hugs. I'll miss her a lot! Then I went into the check-in area. After about 10 minutes, I figured out exactly where I was supposed to check in (there is a miserable lack of signs in Ben Gurion airport), and it turned out I needed to wait in a long security line prior to checking in for my flight. So I called Samer and used up the remaining minutes on my rental phone, which I would have to return once I entered the area with the departure gates. As I waited in the security lines, I watched an aiport employee walking around from person to person in the line, asking questions, looking at their passports, and making determinations about who got checked by the security personnel. It was clear that most of the people were allowed to walk right through and check in without any additional security procedures and some of the people had to put their bags through an x-ray machine and then have them searched by a group of security officers to my left prior to checking in for their flights. I hoped that, against all the odds, I would be allowed through. Mostly, I was concerned about what they would find in my luggage. Besides having bought a bunch of kafias (sp?) from Jerusalem, I had a stack of books about Palestinian refugees (in Arabic and English) that I the folks at BADIL had given me. And I knew that if they found those books (the last guy hadn't found them) I'd be taken into a room for questioning and could miss my flight. In retrospect, it was pretty stupid of me not to just mail all of that stuff from Jerusalem to the U.S., but for a bunch of crazy reasons I didn't have time at the end of my trip to do this.

When the woman finally made it to me, she took my passport and asked me why I was in Israel. I told her I was visiting. She took up a very conversational tone, asking me if I had any family here. I told her no. She asked if I spoke Hebrew, and, again, I told her no. It was clear at this point that she was trying to get me talking, and the whole experience felt very different than the kinds of security questions that get asked in other countries, as this woman was almost sly and conniving in the way that she was talking to me. I was in an awkward position. Clearly, I couldn't go into all the people I knew and the work I was there for, but I also couldn't outright lie to her, as this would put me in a very bad position if I was found out (which was quite possible, given the existence of this blog). Even though I hadn't done anything wrong or illegal, just having visited Palestinians would have made me suspicious to the airport security personnel, and working to build playgrounds for Palestinian children would seem even worse to them. I settled on being intentionally vague and only answering the questions I was asked. For instance, when she asked me where I had been, I told her I had stayed mostly in and around Jerusalem (which, by my standards, was true, since Ramallah is really only about 20 minutes from Jerusalem, just like a brief ride from Philly to the suburbs). At one point, she asked if anyone had given me anything while I was there, and I told her about two olive wood boxes that Kathy had given me, as well as some books. Why I mentioned the books I'll never know. What a mistake. I guess I thought that books sound very non-explosive. Somehow, this led to her asking who I received things from and who I had visited or met in Israel. I only invoked the two most American sounding friends I could think of, Kathy and Susie. I told her that while I was there I saw my friends Susie and Kathy and met some of their friends. Again, this was true. She asked to see the boxes, and I took them out (they were in one of my carry-ons). I told her my stuff had already been searched and x-rayed by the guys at the checkpoint and that she could see the inspection stickers they had left on each of my bags, but she insisted that I take out the boxes and open them for her. She even asked me if there was anything in the boxes, to which I responded that there wasn't. She would not touch them until I opened them for her. I don't remember how it came up, but I also mentioned something about NGOs in all of my vagueness and she pressed on about this as well. We resolved that issue when I said that the person who gave me the boxes was working with the Quakers, and then I had to explain who the Quakers were. In the end, it was a very complicated conversation and I did my best not to get myself into too much of a knot. The woman took my passport and the notes she had been writing the whole time we were talking, and she walked away from me. A few minutes later, a male security guy came over to me and told me to follow him, saying, "this will get you through more quickly," which was apparently code for "now we will search everything you own."

This man had me put all my bags through an x-ray machine and then led me over to an area where a number of security personnel were searching through the luggage of about 9 passengers simultaneously. He directed me to one pair of women, who proceeded to go through almost every inch of each of my bags, one at a time. I was not happy, and I grumbled that this had already been done to me and that now I would have to repack my bags once more. One of the women said to me that this was for my own safety and that I could choose to go through this with a smile or with a frown. I told her that I will not smile through this and that it was not for my own safety, but if she wanted to let herself believe that, then this was her choice. They unpacked everything, putting my belongings into a tub on the countertop for all the world to see. I think they got a little grossed out when they came to my dirty underwear and socks, and, miraculously, they left the books from BADIL in my bag, untouched. Again, I had to repack everything before going to check in for my flight.

They sent me right to the check-in counter, where I had my bag checked in to be sent to Frankfort (I had planned to stay overnight in Germany with my friend Mattias). Then I went through to the next level of security. My ticket had clearly been marked with some sign for the security people, so I was doomed from the start. I arrived at the entrance to the gates and gave my passport and ticket to the woman in front of the area where they do the x-rays and security checks as people pass on to the gates. In front of me, there were about 16 (maybe more?) potential security lines, roughly 8 on each side. On the right side, the lines were significantly quicker. On the left side, most people were getting thoroughly searched. I, of course, was sent to the left side. After waiting and waiting for the people in front of me to get searched, I was put through the machines. I refused to take off my sweatshirt, since I had a relatively see-through white shirt underneath it, so they made me show them that my pockets were empty and they checked my hood before letting me through the metal detector. Then the metal detector rang as I went through, so they made me take off my shoes and walk back through it. Once they were sure that I was not carrying anything awful on my person, they sent me to the end of the x-ray machine, where I followed a male security officer to some tables so that he too could go through every inch of my bags, taking out all of my electronic devices (and everything else), x-raying everything multiple times, and, of course, making me repack everything once more. He too said it was for my own safety. They must feed this line to these idiots every day.

By the time I got out of security, I had to run through to the gates, quickly stopping by the cell phone rental desk to return my phone along the way. Though I had initially arrived at the airport almost 3 1/2 hours in advance of my flight, I only got to the gate with enough time to quickly buy a sandwich, have them wrap it up for me, and stand in line to board the plane. Most of the passengers on my flight were happily sitting in the waiting area, talking, reading, working on computers, or eating, because they had been at the gate for quite some time now.

The flight was relatively uneventful, and I got to Frankfurt and through the airport in enough time to make it on an earlier train to Stuttgart, where Mattias picked me up. I even got some free chocolates at the Frankfurt airport - you gotta love those Germans. Mattias and I had a fun evening. He put together a yummy but perfectly light dinner for us, and we just hung out and talked for a few hours before I crashed on the most comfortable couch I've ever slept on. We woke up 5 hours later, and I was off again for another 1 1/2 hour train ride back to the Frankfurt airport. Somehow, we left a few minutes too late, and I missed the train (I literally made it to the platform as the doors were closing), so I had to wait another 40 minutes for the next one to leave. By the time I got to the airport, I was running to the check-in, running to the security lines (which were surprisingly efficient, though long), and running to my gate. Again, I just made it to the gate a few minutes before boarding, but this time it was completely my fault.

Mattias and me in a last minute picture taken with his long arms (he never smiles in pictures):


My flight was from Frankfurt to Toronto, and I had about a 5 hour layover in Toronto. Unfortunately for me, my Toronto-Philadelphia flight was late, so I ended up waiting in Toronto for about 6 1/2 hours. I met a few really interesting people (Ute, I hope you're reading this!), but most of my time was just spent waiting and wandering. I almost missed the boarding of the flight, because I was so exhausted that I fell asleep sitting up at the gate.

When I got home, I spent a fabulous evening with Samer, my parents, and his parents. We ate take-out Chinese food and I told stories about my travels. It was loud and fun and just what I needed after a long trip. Then I just slept and slept.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Arrived Home Safely

I am writing a quick post to let you know that I arrived home safely after a tiresome and frustrating travel experience. I will write more about my last few days in Palestine and my trip home in the coming days. Also, I will continue the blog for a little longer so that I can share more reflections that I didn't have time to write while I was away.

Again, thank you all for sticking with me during my trip. I am looking forward to many interesting conversations with all of you in the coming days/weeks/months!

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Playgrounds Approved for Importation into the West Bank!!!

I forgot the most important post of all today...

I received a call from L this afternoon while I was in the Old City, and she told me that we have received approval from the Israeli authorities to bring the playgrounds into the West Bank and install them at the two sites. They will be released from the port within the next few days and should arrive at the ANERA warehouse and be distributed to the their respective sites by the beginning of next week.

I am so relieved that this issue has been taken care of, even though I am still disappointed that I was not able to be here for the actual installation.

Thank you to L from ANERA for being so persistant with the authorities!

Souk, Take Two

Today I went to the Arab quarter of the Old City with the intention of visiting Al-Aqsa Mosque. But the best laid plans...

I have a little problem. Call it massive ADD. Call it an inability to stay on track. I tend to, uh, drift.

I took the bus from Mount of Olives to the closest gate to enter the Old City and wandered around for a bit. I stopped in a few shops, since there were some souvenirs I still needed to buy for people, but I didn't buy anything. Then I found my way to Al-Aqsa, only to be told that it was closed for prayer until 1:30 and that I couldn't go through if I wasn't Muslim. I could probably have told them I was Muslim, but I wasn't dressed properly anyway, so I just left, thinking I would wander around until 1:30 and then be able to come back and take some pictures at that time.

As I walked back past a shop I had already stopped in, the elderly shop owner talked to me, asking if I was Arab. I told him I was Moroccan but had grown up in the U.S. and I explained what I was doing here, and this sparked a whole conversation. He invited me in for coffee, and I accepted. And then we couldn't stop talking. We talked for a few hours as tourist after tourist passed by, occasionally buying some small item from the front of the shop. He told me many interesting stories about what it was like to be a shop owner there. For instance, he said that sometimes tourists will come to buy a lot of stuff from him, but the second he offers them coffee and explains that this is Arab hospitality, they leave the shop without buying a thing because they have been warned by their guides or their friends not to buy from Arabs. He spent a long time showing me all kinds of antiques and explaining their origins (he know a lot about antiques from the area). It was incredible to hold in my hand an object that had been held by another person 2000 years ago! In the end, I bought some of what I needed to bring home to people from his shop, but the best part about it was being able to connect with this interesting person.

By the time I left, it was way too late to go to the mosque, since it closes to outsiders again at 3PM. I did, however, convince the guys at the entrance to let me just pop in, take a quick picture, and leave. They were very kind in letting me do so. (I'll upload the picture tomorrow.)

Then I walked down Via Dolorosa (sp?), again meaning to just leave the Old City and return to my hotel for a few hours of rest before heading off to see Adel, Susie's cousin, and his wife Laila. As I passed by one shop, however, rows of good quality pottery caught my eye, and I went inside. I spent the next while looking at pottery and picking out pieces, at the same time talking with one of the shop owners about Zionism and world politics. We had a lot in common in our perspectives, and we ended up talking for a few hours. I didn't leave his shop until after 7PM. To put this into perspective, I had picked out all I was going to buy by about 5PM. So two hours was spent talking (again over coffee) and getting deep into the politics of Zionism.

By the time I left, I was in a real rush to get back to Mount of Olives. I got to have a nice conversation with my mother on the way back, a quick conversation with Samer when I reached the hotel, and then I ran out to see Adel and Laila and their kids.

I had a really great time with them tonight. When I arrived, the other kids were asleep, but their youngest son Muhammed was still awake. He is probably the most adorable thing you've ever seen. He has serious spunk for a 5-year-old and is thoroughly fun and huggable. I made it home with sleepy eyes, and, after a few hours on the computer trying to update this blog and upload pictures, I'm wiped out.

I will try to post something tomorrow, but it is my last day here (I'm spending it in Ramallah) and I don't know how late I will be arriving back at the hotel. So check back late tomorrow. If I don't post anything tomorrow, I may not be able to write anything until Friday night or Saturday, when I arrive back in the States. So please don't be alarmed if you don't hear from me for a few days.

I do plan on continuing my blog for a while even after I return, as there are many things I've wanted to write but didn't for lack of time. So if you're still interested, I'm still writing!

I am really sad to leave here, but I can't wait to see Samer, my parents, and his parents on Friday! Also, I will be spending Thursday night with our friend Matthias in Stuttgart, Germany, as I have an overnight layover in Frankfurt. I haven't seen Matthias for a really long time, and it'll be great to catch up. (I know he's reading this blog, too, so he is up to speed with my trip as well.)

Great Palestinian Political Cartoons

When I was at the Arab American University, I met a guy who does political cartoons and has a great website. Check it out: http://jffra.com/
Most of the cartoons are in Arabic, but you can get the gist of the message.

Here's a great one about Gaza:

And another one (the Arabic writing says "Gaza"):

And another (again, the Arabic writing on the guillotine says "Gaza"):



And a more general one (the Arabic writing next to one straw reads "Hamas" and next to the other reads "Fatah", two opposing Palestinian political parties):


The Privilege of Being American

I wanted to write a short post about what it means to be an American here, as I felt it was important to communicate to all of you the kind of privilege I've enjoyed while travelling through the West Bank and Jerusalem. Mostly, I want you all to see that my experience here doesn't hold a candle to what Palestinians live through every day.

My identity here is interesting, and I it proffers me many layers of privilege. Every time I pass through a checkpoint, I have the privilege of handing the soldiers an American passport. And even when I'm just walking around, anywhere I go, I can know that as an American I am much safer than the average Palestinian, since if I get stopped for some reason my American passport may be able to get me off the hook (or at least prevent the authorities from doing the worst possible things to me).

When the soldiers open my passport, they read an obviously Jewish last name, and this offers me another very important layer of privilege. I have invoked my Jewishness at checkpoints a number of times already, though I do this only when I think it may make it easier to get my Palestinian friends through, as I don't want to play into the "the land of Israel is for all Jews" propaganda. I certainly do not feel that I have any birthright to this place.

Because of my unplaceable physical appearance, I can pass for many ethnicities. For the most part, when people look at me they see what they want to see. They try to see in me a reflection of their own identities, and this tends to work in my favor. Jews look at me and see a Jew. Arabs look at me and see an Arab (there are some exceptions to this rule, which I will explain later in my post). In Israel and Palestine I am clearly a foreign outsider to both groups, but my experience has typically been that all of these semitic people think of me as a distant mirror of their own ethnicity. I think people generally want to be around people like themselves, and most folks would prefer to think of themselves as similar to, rather than different from, those around them.

However, I am both an American Jew and an Arab Muslim, and I have the wonderful privilege of switching back and forth, depending on what the situation calls for. So when I encounter Arabs, I am quick to indicate that I too am Arab. At that point, they usually say to me, "Yes, you look like an Arab - it's your face" or something to that extent. When I am around Jews, I prefer not to identify with them, except in extenuating circumstances. This is mostly because most of these interactions are so superficial that, for me, identifying as a Jew in Israel would feel like I am communicating a complicity with Zionism. I can't really indicate to these people that I am against Zionism while in public, since this could put me or the people I am with in danger (or just make things more difficult for us in that moment).

As an American, I get better treatment at the checkpoints than any Palestinian can expect, and I have a lot more leeway to resist the demeaning behavior of many soldiers. When I am with a Palestinian, my privilege sometimes gives them a wider margin of error, and there have been a number of times when just showing my American passport got my campanions off the hook (this is only when we're in the car, not on foot). Occasionally, I've noticed that seeing an American travelling with a Palestinian has elicited a resentful response from soldiers at checkpoints, but for the most part it has worked in our favor.

For most of my trip, I have also been travelling in a rental car with Jerusalem license plates. As the driver of that car, I look Israeli. Police are less likely to stop me in that car, and soldiers are more likely to be lenient to me in that car. And it is infinitely easier to get around in a car here than it is to have to take one bus from the hotel to the bus station, another bus from the bus station to the checkpoint, and another bus from the checkpoint to whatever is my final destination. And remember, that also means going through the checkpoint on foot and likely waiting in long lines, possibly in inclement weather. But I just get to drive through checkpoints, sitting in the comfort of my car as I wait in line. Also, buses and services (pronounced "ser-veeces) stop running at a certain hour, so having a car means I have a lot more flexibility in terms of when I have to leave wherever I am.

Finally, as an American working with an NGO, I have the privilege of mentioning my NGO affiliation in interactions with IDF soldiers and Palestinians, and it seems to work equally well with both groups. For the soldiers, my affiliation with an NGO means that I am allowed to pass through what they call "humanitarian" checkpoints or "humanitarian lines" at regular checkpoints. This kind of organizational affiliation is also often sufficient explanation for why an American is in the West Bank. For Palestinians, as soon as I tell them I'm with an NGO (and give a one-sentence description of our work) they are put at ease that I am on their side, so to speak. In the West Bank, NGO is a little bit like code for "I'm here to help, not hurt, your community." (There may be exceptions to this point, but this has been my experience to date.) In Jerusalem, it also indicates that I am not merely an annoying tourist, and it has opened up many opportunities for interesting conversations. Maybe too being affiliated with an NGO gives Palestinians a sense that if they tell me their stories I am likely to share their suffering with the rest of the world in some way... I could be wrong about this, but it's a thought.

Some of these markers of identity can work against me as well. Often, I don't want to be mistaken as an Israeli, and I do everything in my power for that not to happen when I am around Arabs (which is most of the time). In a car, this is difficult. I have certainly encountered looks of resentment at times when I'm not on my best behavior. I am trying to be just a little bit deferential to Palestinians, as this offers a real contradiction to the way most Israelis and foreigners treat them, but there are times when I am tired or sick or both (like right now) and it is hard not to fall into the trap of resting on my privilege. I too can be an ugly American, though I try my darndest not to be.

So as you read about my experiences, I hope you'll remember that what I am seeing and living is nothing in comparison to what happens all the time to most Palestinians here. Don't look at my stories and draw the conclusion that the occupation is merely a minor nuisance and life here clearly isn't all that bad. It IS that bad. Really.

Lost My Pictures...

I took a bunch of pictures of the Al-Phoenix Center Association yesterday, but, due to my own stupidity, I've lost every picture I took yesterday. Argh! Sorry about that. I really wanted to share them with you all so that you could see what a great place it is!